It’s been exactly one year since I decided to quit drinking and actually stuck with it. It was the hardest and most challenging year of my life but I am so much better off because of it. Its just now hitting me that I’m never going to drink alcohol again in this lifetime, and you know what? I’m really okay with that. :)
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its true. now to own it.
DailyHoroscope for AndroidSagittarius horoscope for Jul 9 2011Sagittarius Jul 9 2011 The way you look at something can make all the difference in the world. You may now be viewing a difficulty or loss or failure as a lost cause with no positive benefits. But there is another perspective you could take. First, you learned something important. Second, it has gotten you to think more deeply about the situation and possibly about your life in general. It may also have helped you to figure out who your true friends are. If you accept a recent problem as a learning experience, you will find the silver lining - which is worth its weight in gold.
I was doing so well, had built my life back up and gained momentum beyond my goals of attaining a lasting state of happiness and self-love, transcending even a masturbatory state of self-indulgent existence. And then there being back in the land where I came from for five nights and now…. a song that was on repeat. My emotions, now constrained by lyrics like a butterfly in a harness at the hole of Jackhammer after IML, prepositionally described. A cliche, but whatever, I’ll post it in a place for all to see anyways. Transparently and with an audio file too large to post on tumblr, he walks like this…
Phoenix - If I Ever Feel Better
They say an end can be a start
Feels like I’ve been buried yet I’m still alive
It’s like a bad day that never ends
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don’t try to deny
I’d better learn to accept that
There are things in my life that I can’t control
They say love ain’t nothing but a sore
I don’t even know what love is
Too many tears have had to fall
Don’t you know I’m so tired of it all
I have known terror dizzy spells
Finding out the secrets words won’t tell
Whatever it is it can’t be named
There’s a part of my world that’ s fading away
You know I don’t want to be clever
To be brilliant or superior
True like ice, true like fire
Now I know that a breeze can blow me away
Now I know there’s much more dignity
In defeat than in the brightest victory
I’m losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please…
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it’s all over I’ll let you know
Hang on to the good days
I can lean on my friends
They help me going through hard times
But I’m feeding the enemy
I’m in league with the foe
Blame me for what’s happening
I can’t try, I can’t try, I can’t try…
No one knows the hard times I went through
If happiness came I miss the call
The stormy days ain’t over
I’ve tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost
Now I’ve watched all my castles fall
They were made of dust, after all
Someday all this mess will make me laugh
I can’t wait, I can’t wait, I can’t wait…
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it’s all over I’ll let you know
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it’s all over I’ll let you know
It’s like somebody took my place
I ain’t even playing my own game
The rules have changed well I didn’t know
There are things in my life I can’t control
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don’t try to deny
I’d better learn to accept that
There’s a part of my life that will go away
Dark is the night, cold is the ground
In the circular solitude of my heart
As one who strives a hill to climb
I am sure I’ll come through I don’t know how
They say an end can be a start
Feels like I’ve been buried yet I’m still alive
I’m losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please…
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it’s all over I’ll let you know
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it’s all over I’ll let you know
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it’s all over I’ll let you know
